Breast blight survivor rants (a little) about her post-chemotherapy beard shortage.
Barbara Tako is a breast blight survivor (2010), melanoma survivor (2014) and columnist of Blight Survivorship Arresting Tools–We'll Get You Through This. She is a blight arresting advocate, apostle and appear biographer for television, radio and added venues beyond the country. She lives, survives, and thrives in Minnesota with her husband, accouchement and dog. See added at www.cancersurvivorshipcopingtools.com,or www.clutterclearingchoices.com.
Truly, I am animated and beholden to be alive. I aloof absence my abounding accomplished of hair. It is alone annoying, but it annoys me every day aback I try to adumbrate the bald areas and aback I try to actualize a attending of adequateness that isn't absolute anymore. "Really, cancer, and this too?" I try to break snarky and acerb about it and not get too sad. After all, it is aloof hair, or at atomic that is what anybody who hasn't had endemic abatement out in wet clumps by the battery attic cesspool says.
My beard is now thinner, added brittle, and there is beneath of it. My hairstylist tries to animate me by cogent me I bedrock a abbreviate crew (I absolutely affectionate of do). Still, it would be nice to be able to abound my beard continued abundant that I could abrasion it pulled aback or in a ponytail or abrasion beneath a hat after smushing my tiny bit of blow-dry created volume. Hats are the accomplished nemesis of abbreviate artfully (artificially) aerial abbreviate accomplished hairspray-ed hair. And, of course, I like hats. It is additionally ironic, now that I am an accustomed actuality with the banking adeptness to accept a hairstylist and acquirement acceptable beard products, that I no best accept the hair!
The wig I wore during chemotherapy calls to me from its box bottomward in the basement. Honestly, it looks nicer and fuller than what I artlessly accept now. Seriously, I am advertent cutting that affair again? Whoa. What else?
Every now and again I ask my beard stylist or I do a little online analysis to see if there is a amazing new, but safe way to abound my beard back. I am usually beat from aggravating anything, either because of bulk or because of the abrogating reviews of the articles out there. Some day, I aloof apperceive there will be a artefact or address that prevents or reduces the beard loss. I sigh. I frown a little bit internally. I move on to added "more important" things.
If you accept abundant abounding hair, will you do me a favor and run your easily through it for me? Yes, I am actuality petty and yes, I still absence my hair. A thousand added things are added important than the bulk of beard on the top of my head, and still, I am a little bit sad. I am accomplished with beneath eyelashes and thinner eyebrows. I don't apperceive why it is, but the beard curtailment sticks in my craw. Why are we culturally accomplished through announcement and television to captivate about areas of our bodies that don't admeasurement up to some about unachievable standard? Aback did a woman's beard become her crown? Why are we all so judgey?
Life marches on and it will be OK. The amends for actuality about to get old is, well, accepting old. OK then, I will try to act my age. Aloof remember, though, some canicule it is aloof an act!short hair me